Still Running – and Eating

I know it’s been a long time since I posted – I think about the blog everyday and how much I’d just love to sit and type.  My days are full.  I know, I should be making more time for this because it keeps me focused and on my game.  I’m in school all week until 3pm – I get home and there’s always something for me to do.  After supper I try to get my run in.  I wish I could run every night – it’s actually quite challenging at the best of times – but I continue to read that you shouldn’t run too often because you need to allow your body to recover.  I try for 3-4 nights a week – this week though the 3 nights might be one after the other because I was not in the best of shape over the weekend.  And I refuse to run in the rain – I don’t care how lazy that sounds, I just don’t want to.

And my oldest girl is moving – this has consumed some of my time as well.  And it has also consumed a lot of emotions.  I’m trying really hard to stay clear of the junk food because we all know this is where I head to when I’m upset … comfort food … I ate chips over the weekend and although tasty and crunchy, they still made me feel guilty.  I had a party and people brought all kinds of dips and chips but surprisingly enough, I didn’t eat a whole lot of it.  The next day, however, was a different story!  I normally have a BK Whopper meal after a night out partying, but Sunday I just wasn’t feeling it.  Oh, I probably could have ripped someone’s arm off for one, but I’m glad I didn’t go get it because I probably would have been incredibly sick.  I didn’t eat anything healthy, mind you, and if it hadn’t of been for the excruciating headache I had, I probably would have gone for a run.  This is why I hate going out because the next day I’m rather useless.

So – this is a new week – I got out for my run last night – I clocked four 4 min runs and one of them was actually more like 4:10 and I walked in between for the 1 minute.  I was quite happy with that.  I will probably go again tonight and I’m going to see if I can get to 4:30 minutes.  That is my goal.  My daughter and I are going to be doing some volunteer work on Saturday for the Doctor’s NS Youth Run – it sounds like it could be a lot of fun.  It would get me out there practicing and cheering on the kids.  I’m looking forward to it!

I guess my biggest struggle this week is diet.  I can’t loose another ounce for some reason, but yet I still feel great.  I have been having some “fat” days and I hate them … I don’t know how to get rid of them … well, I do, but it’s SO hard … I hate counting calories, I hate counting fat, I hate keeping track … I tried last week and I managed to write in my food journal one day … for some strange odd reason, it has now become easier to run than it is to diet.  This time 6 months ago, I’d be saying the opposite.  I’m still trying to get my green tea and orange in during the evening .. but I’m also picking.  I’m wondering if the running is increasing my appetite.  I’m scared to start eating more.  I have breakfast and I bring a lunch to school … and I try to get my protein and veggie for supper – but them damn evenings.  It’s worse when it’s raining because I’m bored – we all know what happens when boredom sets in.

Still Running – Sometimes I Just Amaze Myself

Yup, I’m still running – and I’m actually getting quite used to it! I try and get out at least 4 times a week if I can that way if I’m not running enough on a particular day, maybe the 4th day will carry me through … is this okay? 🙂

What is kind of bothering me is this – I still weigh the same as I did when I finished the Biggest Loser Challenge. I’m not understanding why though? I am still eating healthy and I still haven’t stepped into a fast food restaurant, so I’m confused. I thought, “yeah, my muscles are growing” – but seriously, how long do they keep growing until I start to see some numbers drop?? I have not moved this much in years so I was half expecting to loose those last 20 lbs I was hoping to get rid of.

I even planned an evening run with the Learn to Run group. I went there dressed in my running pants, and jacket – I even took a bottle of water with me so if Kathy was there, I probably would have gone with the group. I parked the car behind the YMCA and as I was making my way over to the gym, I fell. OMG – it hurt like hell! I landed on my two knees and my two hands. For some reason, my left knee must have hit harder, or the fact that it’s full of arthritis, made it feel that much more painful. I got up, tried to walk and then heard some idiot yell to me. Thinking (amidst my embarrassment) that someone might actually be concerned, he yelled, ‘Is that your car?” pointing to my car – which I thought was parked in an afterhours parking lot – I said, “yeah” – really thinking – ‘I’m okay, thanks for asking’ – and then he yelled at me to move it! I was so upset (not to mention sore). I walked over to my car – bastard wouldn’t even look at me limping – and drove away. I found a spot to park and I sat there overwhelmed with pain! Why was this man so cruel?

I made my way to the YMCA – early – they were handing out our tshirts for the Fiddler’s Run and I really wanted one – I knew it was going to say, “Training for the Fiddler’s Run” and I’ve never trained for anything before so I was excited to get this shirt. I know – a little juvenile – but that’s just me. I guess it validates some sort of accomplishment. I got to the Y and the lady got me some bandaids for my cut and I waited for them to bring in the shirts. I was feeling very sore so I just grabbed my shirt and came home. I was sore and a little upset so I wasn’t in much of a socializing mood.

When I got home, everyone left so I decided since I was already in running gear, I’d go on the treadmill. It was raining out pretty bad so I went downstairs. I didn’t want to go two days in a row without running. I got on there – it was a lot different than outside let me tell you. I got tired a lot quicker for some reason and built up quite the sweat. I didn’t last very long on it and went back upstairs. My knee hurt. I jumped in the shower and noticed the cut on my knee bled through the bandaids. I was done for the night.

I made my tea, had my snack and sat down to watch some tv. I’ll try the run thing again tomorrow – outside.

A Roller Coaster Week

Another busy week over with.  I guess y’all are wondering how the juice cleanse went – well … not so great, I’m afraid.  I had great plans to follow this for a week and even borrowed a juicer to get myself going.  I bought all kinds of great fruit and vegetables – as you have seen from my previous post – and it started out great.  The first day I had a great juice for breakfast, took one to school with me that proved to be rather strong so I ate an apple instead.  I had it in my head that I was going to ‘juice’ my spinach salad when I got home.

I grabbed some spinach, celery, and other vegetables with the intentions on “drinking” my salad.  Just prior to that I suggested to Ashley that she should perhaps just enjoy the morning juices because she wasn’t going to go anywhere near the vegetable ones.  I felt she wasn’t getting the vitamins and nutrients she needed.  Oh, she was all over that!  She LOVES the fruit juices.  After I made my vegetable juice, I took one drink and blach!  OMG, it was horrible!  I was done … I was starving … I don’t want to “drink” my food … I want to chew it.  It breaks my heart to throw out all that pulp and good food all for the sake of creating juice.  I decided just to stick with eating fruit and vegetables with the odd protein or carb thrown in there.

Ashley’s loving the juice and has one every morning – which I think is awesome because she normally goes to school without any breakfast and very rarely will she eat fruit … except berries and watermelon.  I see this as a positive move – but perhaps get rather expensive.  I think I might trade the juicer in for a blender though so we can also enjoy the thickness – I think a smoothie would be a lot more filling than just the juice – and cheaper.  Tonight, I used up the pineapple and there’s a jug of juice ready for her for breakfast.

Now – the running – well that’s been a little bit of a roller coaster this week.  I am very passionate about wanting to do this, but it rained most of the week and my motivation was nil.  I did go for a LONG walk yesterday to my sisters – I even did some running.  The whole time I was running, I was thinking about the kind of email I wanted to write to our Learn to Run groups trainer – Kathy – because I really need to find someone who’s going to push me.  Or perhaps I just need someone to show me how to do this running thing properly.

When I got home – I sat down to my laptop and found her in Facebook … I asked her for help … she invited me to join her and a few other team members this afternoon for a run.  I wasn’t sure about this but I said yes, absolutely.  I got up today, jumped in the shower and picked out some running clothes.  I had NO idea what to expect when I got there.  She told me she’d give me some one on one pointers and she felt I’d really enjoy the smaller group. She was right!  I got there and I saw these women – my age – clearly not the athletic types – which was perfect.  I felt like I belonged to just this group.  Mind you, I’m about 3 weeks behind in the training so I had some catching up to do.  There were ladies there who had the same questions and concerns as I did – how do you breath as you run, plantar faciitus, etc … stuff like that.

Then off we went – she informed us we’d be doing 3 and 1 … I thought for sure she said that backwards … but I was wrong – she really meant “run 3 minutes, walk 1” – omg, I’m clearly going to have a heart attack!  We started walking until we got to the first stop sign and then she said we’d start to run – this was their first week of 3/1 so I wasn’t the only one starting this.  Off I went … Kathy wasn’t too far .. watching how I jogged … giving me great pointers on how to run – I quickly discovered that I was jogging too fast and I shouldn’t have been moving my arms – she says it uses too much energy.  So that’s where I’ve been going wrong.  I jogged slower … and then she calls, “One minute” … and my God, I was still moving … “One minute 30” … wow – then I stopped for about 15 seconds and I started again … before I knew it, I had run 3 minutes!  Holy crap .. I really couldn’t believe I did that.  I sucked in as much air as I could during that one minute!  Off I went again – I jogged off and on … I did more jogging than walking … then I realized I was letting too many people pass me so I upped the speed a little.   Running back was easier because the wind was behind me.  I jogged most of the last 3 minutes – and when I heard “30 seconds left” … I thought there is NO way I’m stopping now … I was done!  Sweating, gasping for a breath … then I see there’s this girl in front of me … and I didn’t want her finishing before me.  As Kathy decided to sprint the last minute or so … I thought maybe I could find some of that second wind.  I took off and did a little bit of a sprint.  I passed the girl – and then walked the rest.  I had 4-5 people finish behind me, so I was happy about that.  I didn’t want to finish last.

We did some stretches and I couldn’t wait to get to my car for some water!  I felt awesome!  It was only 2pm and I can’t believe my run for the day is over.

I got home and grabbed Ashley and we decided to go to Subway for lunch.  It was an awesome day and I’ll be back on Tuesday to do it again … and I might even join them on Thursday evening … maybe …

Holy Crap, I Did It!

It’s been awhile since I posted and I have to be honest, things have been going pretty good.  We went away for the weekend and Ashley and I made a plan to do some shopping.  The only store I really wanted to get to was The Running Room – figuring maybe it might inspire me to run.

I tried doing some running during the week – I didn’t get far … literally.  I did some walking, but I wasn’t very successful at the running part – but at least I got out of the house.

I bought a magazine on Friday and in it there was this juice cleanse article and I thought maybe I’d try it.  Cleansing really helps your joints and muscles and mine are sore.  I read the article and made a plan. I located a juicer that I could borrow and when I get back from Halifax, I plan to do the 7 day cleanse.

My first shopping stop in Halifax was The Running Room – what an awesome store!  I really wanted a jacket and something to time me on my runs – 1 minute run, 2 minutes walk X 6.  The guy in the store showed me this watch and it will do 6 sets for me – perfect.  I bought the watch, a water bottle that I can carry around my wrist and a gorgeous jacket – pink!  I figured since I spent so much at that store, I’m going to have to stick to a program.  They gave me this free Running Room magazine and in it are two great articles – one about my osteoarthritis and another one about my plantar faciitus.  Running is not hurtful for either one.  I was happy to read that and the plantar faciitus article tells you how to prevent it from flaring up.

So, in Halifax Ashley wanted to go to Victoria Secret – knowing this wasn’t the store for me, I walked a little further and came across Pink – it’s a sister store of Victoria Secret so I thought what the heck, I’ll go in.  I saw this awesome pair of pajamas bottoms (Capris) and a top.  I thought I’d try them on. Took my usual large size and off to the dressing room.  Much to my surprise they were way too large on me .. yay me!  I ended up getting the medium pants but I wasn’t too happy with the style of the top – it wasn’t $50 nice and that was the price – it was more $14.95 nice … but that’s not how much it was … so I didn’t get it.

We got home around 3pm and I unpacked everything.  John was being all cranky and stuff so I decided I wanted some time alone – I decided to take a nice leisurely walk.  I was gone an hour, just walking around.  I didn’t do any running.  It felt great … not exercise great, just out in the fresh air great.  I promised myself I’d get out running tonight and I did.

I went out for a few groceries first because tomorrow I’m starting my cleanse and I needed some fresh produce.  Tonight for supper, I took out ribs and got some cold salads.  After I ate bbq ribs and salads, I literally felt sick to my stomach and I wanted to puke.  It felt awful!  I can’t wait to start cleansing out the crap in my body because I realized tonight that the heavy stuff I was eating wasn’t agreeing with my insides.  I never want to feel that way again.

cleanse veggies/fruit

ribs and salads

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Because I was feel so sick, I thought maybe a run/walk would make me feel better.  I figured out my new watch and set my 1 minute running intervals.  I am still getting to know my watch so I only set the one 1 minute session.  For the first minute I was only able to get 45 seconds in before I stopped.  I did that twice and then headed down hill.  I thought, “I got this” … and I saw the next stop sign and was determined to run to it.  I started the timer, and off I went … I pushed and I pushed … when I looked at my watch – I had 11 seconds left … and I still had some energy to keep going … I thought “omg, I think I’m going to do this” … and I did!  I ran the whole minute.  I walked some more .. and tried it again … I did it again.

my last 1 minute interval

So, I did this 6 times for my whole outing!  I felt amazing!  Now I want to do it again tomorrow evening.  I think the song, “It’s Going to be a Good Life” playing in my ear helped me a great deal!  It is going to be a great life – healthy and feeling good.

After I returned from my walk (I no longer felt sick from supper), I hooked up the juicer and made my “lunch” tomorrow – carrots, apples, and ginger root with a dash of lemon.  For breakfast I’m going to make a fruit one – oranges, bananas, and frozen raspberries.  I packed my lunch in a thermos so it’s ready to go.

I know one thing for sure … I’m not going back to that greasy heavy food … it just isn’t worth feeling sick.  I’m honestly sick and tired of feeling sick and tired and I’m also trying very hard to make running my new “habit”.

Disappointed in Me

I’m having a rough day … actually, I had a sucky week too!  I’m here to keep my fingers busy and writing helps me put things into perspective.  I went to the Learn to Run program Thursday evening … I didn’t realize they’d be actually running the first night – I thought it was for registering. The same with the Biggest Loser – we registered, got weighed and left to go home to do our thing.  I thought this was going to be the same – needless to say my anxiety level began to rise. I was wearing my running shoes, but also my jeans and I wasn’t prepared for the cold weather (ie. gloves, hat, sweater). I saw some people I knew, spoke to some and after we chose our ‘leader’, I left with a schedule.

When I got home, I decided to put on my jogging pants and do this on my own.  I got my Iphone and off I went … I decided to run for a minute … it was NOT easy!  My knee hurt and I was so out of breath.  I walked for a few minutes and then I decided to try again.  I only lasted 30 seconds – my legs just would not carry me.  They were like jello and my knee felt like there was a baseball inside it. I walked for another while and tried again … 45 seconds … that’s how long I lasted.  I did a few more 30 second rounds and was finished this torture in 28.5 minutes.

When I got home, I completely hated myself.  I was embarrassed, depressed, and just felt like, “There is NO way I’m going to be able to run”.  I certainly don’t want to do it with a group of people.  I’m not even sure I want to do it alone.  The weather’s been crappy all weekend so I couldn’t even get out for a walk.  This just isn’t my weekend.  I have my doctor appointment on Tuesday and I’m hoping he’s going to tell me I shouldn’t run.  I’m not sure if I’m going to try again tomorrow – I might.  It certainly would be a plus if the weather cooperated.

So, that kind of set the tone for the rest of the week.  I got into the chips the other night … sat in the bedroom with John’s chips binging … it’s never pretty … but they were good.  Greasy, salty and oh-my-God crunchy!  I just finished my green tea, and a pastry .. sigh … and last night, I told John if he had of brought me a bacon-cheese burger, I wouldn’t have been mad (he didn’t though).  I’m in the mood to binge, so I thought it’d be best if I opened my blog and started running my fingers across the keyboard – it’s relaxing.

I bought fat free lunch meat and cut up some vegetables for my lunch tomorrow.  I even put my fruit out.  I’m definitely going back on track tomorrow.  Actually, back on track starts now.  If I wait until tomorrow then I’m sure I’ll binge for the rest of the evening.  I’m thinking a mandarin orange for my evening snack.

I don’t know how those who run keep going … I wonder how I can increase my endurance and not feel like I’m going to die? Someone at the registration said if she could do it, anyone could.  I wish I could do this … I just don’t want to in front of people – it’s embarrassing. 

Is It Really Ever Over?

Well, I’m sitting here at work and it’s kind of slow so I thought I’d catch you all up on the final standings in the Biggest Loser Challenge. I didn’t win. I didn’t expect to, really – I was hoping, but I knew I could have worked harder but seriously, I needed to do something that I would have stuck with – attending a gym just wasn’t a realistic goal for me. It’s important to set realistic goals and exercise isn’t one of mine. It’s important to be honest with yourself – those were the problems I had the many many times I’ve tried to loose weight before – go to a gym, loose motivation, leave gym (my life). I’d try “new” things that I would never stick with. Learning to eat healthy and stay out of the fast food restaurants is something that I WILL stick with! Those are goals that I find much easier to attain. So my final weight loss total was 15.6lbs with the Challenge, but I’m actually down 18 lbs since January 1st. I’ll take it! I almost got to my 20 lb, but came up two pounds short … I can easily blame myself … but that’s okay – I’m still going to be on the loosing side of that scale. Summer is coming and I do NOT want to be struggling to fit into shorts and tshirts. I’d also like to sport a tank top now and again.

I’ll admit, I’m a little bit nervous since the competition is over and I was really scared I’d binge this week – but I held strong – I continued with my green tea in the evening and my fruit. I went for groceries last night and didn’t buy any junk food. I’m even trying new things – I bought a mango that I’m going to split with my daughter. I also bought these things from the bakery that have absolutely NOTHING in them … no salt, no sugar no fat … hardly any calories … and they taste like those corn puffs you used to eat as a kid. A girl in my class brought them the other day and let me try them … omg, they were delicious. She dipped them in peanut butter – what a great evening snack to have with my green tea.

I’m also determined to run in the Fiddler’s Run this year! I’m also hoping to be doing a work term at an office where a friend of mine works and she just informed me that her whole office runs in it and her boss told her that she’ll be doing it too! Maybe that’s a sign, or a crazy coincedence. I’m registering for the Learn to Run program at the YMCA this Thursday and then next week I have to confirm with my doctor that I can do this. The training is for 8 weeks so I’ll have to get out and do some walking and work my way up to running – I think these are realistic goals for me – they only require me to walk outside … how hard can that be?? It’s not like I have to get in the car, pay for gym membership, and drag my ass to the gym while everyone around me is 13 weeks into their weight loss journeys. The weather will be getting nicer and even if I’m not home, I can walk anywhere. If I’m camping … take a walk around the grounds … or even run. I’m getting a little bit excited for this learn to run thing – I’d like to tone up some muscles … who knows, if I get some more of this weight off, maybe a trip down south is in mine and John’s future. I’m expecting an insurance settlement soon and what a great reward for loosing weight – sure beats food rewards!

So, even though the challenge is over, I’m not finished living a healthy life – I want to continue because I have many years left of my life to live and thoroughly enjoy – I’m not getting any younger and the only one who can take care of this body is me. Will I continue writing … uh, YES! That’s a no brainer … now I have to begin writing about my journey toward running … hhmmm …let’s hope I can keep that momentum going as strongly as I did the weight loss challenge … I NEED to write … it keeps my fingers busy.

March Break is Over – Weigh-In Tomorrow

Well, I survived March break – back to the ole routine tomorrow!  I’m kind of glad in a way because now I can get back into the swing of things with regards to my weight loss challenge.  I believe there are only a few weeks left of the competition, but it’s no longer about the money – although, it would be nice – my goal now is to loose another 15-20 lbs before summer.  If I keep loosing 1-2 lbs/week then I will achieve this goal.  Tomorrow is weigh-in and I’m feeling okay about it.  I’ve seen comments about how some people can’t wait for the Biggest Loser competition to be over so they can go indulge in some kind of fattening, fast food.  I will admit it, I’ve thought the same thing – “I can’t wait until I can have a feed of KFC”.  Then I think, “Isn’t that the reason I got like this to begin with?”  I don’t want to be that fast food junky anymore.  I want to continue to eat healthy or it could very well kill me.

I had a rough week – ate a lot of junk food so I’m not expecting much.  I tried to go on a veggie/fruit fast today – but that came to a screeching halt when John and I went for a Sunday drive and stopped at the bakery in Bras D’or.  I bought a tiny bun of wheat bread and had some when I got home.  Oh, that wasn’t the end of it – I made a one egg/one egg white omelet with mushrooms and green peppers in it.  It was delicious.  Then I had a greek yogurt, some fruit, clementines and green tea with a Special K bar.  In the evening, I enjoyed some almonds, walnuts and just a few bbq peanuts.  I wasn’t really munching on anything too bad until Ashley showed up with a huge bag full of mini-easter eggs.  They are my favorite and I have to admit, Easter isn’t my favorite holiday food-wise (well, it is, but not this year).  I could eat enough chocolate to choke a horse!

Chicken Noodle Soup

I actually made some healthy meals this week – I boiled some chicken breasts and used the water to make a chicken noodle soup.  It’s really good.  I just threw some carrots, celery, and chicken in it.  I added some noodles and yum.  Ashley’s friend was here for the week and she absolutely loved it.  With some of the other chicken I made quesadillas.  I used the flat grill and sprayed it with non-stick cooking spray.

Tomorrow, I have hamburger meat thawed in the fridge so I’ll cook up some patties and veggies for me and I’ll add potatoes to John’s.  I might even make him some french fries.  For lunch, I packed fruit, carrots, a little mini peanut butter/jam sandwich with the tiny bun I bought today.  I also packed some yogurt and a Special K bar to have with my tea.

Now, last week, I got weighed first thing in the morning and tomorrow I’ll get weighed after school so I’m not too hopeful.  Also, I weighed myself last night and it wasn’t pretty.  I was up 3 lbs since my weigh-in at the gym Monday morning.  I am only hopeful for the fact I weighed myself on a different scale and at the opposite end of the day.

March Break – non-routine eating dilemma

Today was my weekly weigh-in.  Normally I would go in the afternoon, but I’m on my March break from school and I had some running around to do so I thought I’d stop in early and do it.  I was thinking I gained a pound or two so I thought if I got weighed in the morning, at least it wouldn’t hurt that bad.  I was right.

I walked in and the gym was so busy.  There was a guy at the desk when I arrived and Shauna was making him this smoothie.  I asked if it was part of the membership and she told me yes.  I was a little bit disappointed when I heard that so I asked her if there was a price if I wanted to buy one.  It was a meal replacement shake and I didn’t have breakfast so I thought it would be perfect.  I was on my way to physio therapy for my neck and I was kind of hungry.  I left the house with only a banana and a cup of tea in my tummy.  While she began my shake I walked over to get weighed.  Much to my surprise, I was down 1.8 lbs!  I was so incredibly happy about that.  When I was done she handed me my shake and omg, it was delicious!  I decided that’s it, I need to go get myself a new blender … my hand held one just won’t do anymore.

This is going to be a rough week for the simple reason that I’m on my one week break from school.  I’m not in my regular routine so now I have to figure out how and when I’m suppose to eat in a whole different way.  I won’t be up at 7am eating breakfast anymore – I probably won’t remember my snacks – and I’ll have easy access to my cupboards and refrigerator.  To some, this may seem like such a silly thing – “why can’t you just control what you eat?” – that’s SO much easier said than done.  At least at school I can only eat what I take with me and at a certain time of day we get a 15 min break and I eat my snacks – and then our half hour lunch and I eat my lunch.  This being at home is going to be tough, but I’m going to try my hardest to have a good weight loss this week – summer isn’t too far away.  Since I’m home, I might even be able to sneak out for a walk or two …

Weigh-In – bye bye 4.6 lbs!

Today was a weigh-in day.  I was actually feeling pretty good about going in today.  I cheated and jumped on the scale when I got up … I was down 4.4 pounds on my scale so I knew I was going to be down SOMETHING at Ascendo, I just wasn’t sure what.  I had a good week food-wise and with that 2.4 gain last week there was NO way I was going to be up or the same – I wasn’t going to have it.  And I certainly wasn’t hoping for a one pounder.  Even though I didn’t write down everything I ate this week, I really tried to make healthy choices.  I’ll admit, it was hard.  I lost track of the things I ate – I didn’t plan for the day ahead – and it was Valentines.

I got on the scale and *boom – down 4.6 lbs!  (that’s 12.4 since the challenge, and 14.3 since Jan 2). I didn’t get weighed at my usual time because there was no school today so I was home.  The weather was crappy this morning so I wasn’t sure when I’d get in to get weighed.  I ended up going at noonish.  I was SO happy with my loss.  Shauna gave me a free week’s membership – the thought of going to the gym excites me, but I know deep in my heart it’s not something I could see me doing for the long term.  It’s not a habit I can see me continuing and I don’t want to start something I know I won’t continue.  I was never a gym person and I honestly don’t think it’s something I’d like.  I tried it before.  I tried the YMCA two years ago – I lasted 2 months, went back to work and just never went back.  With school, work, and kids I have so much going on.  I know people say that not having any time is just an excuse … but my goodness, I’m up at 7am to go to school, I’m either online working or in the office working, and then I’m running around with somebody – plus, I handle all the finances at home so I’m also worrying about money all the time.  I don’t get much time to myself except moments before bed.  I’m happy enough having time to plan my meals and snacks.

Well, that was my rant for the evening … gnite

I Will Never Eat Supper Early Again – recipe for disaster

It’s finally Friday!  School is over for another week and now I’m trying to adjust to my weekend “pattern”. I have actually gone back to work part time so I think it’s going to confuse my body.  I left school today early because we had a test, came home and then got ready to go to work for a few hours.  This would mean eating supper early – like 3pm early!  I was suppose to work 4-8pm which is usually when I eat my supper.

I got a call around 3:15pm and the office manager was going to call me off for the night but I really wanted to go in for at least two hours.  I already ate supper and if I had of stayed home I KNOW I would have picked all night.  She allowed me to come in because since it was my first day back, I had to get settled back into the groove of things.  I work as a tax preparer and I love it.  Last year I ate horribly while I was working – I’d walk over to Tim Horton’s coffee shop and buy iced capps and sandwiches and sometimes donuts.  I’d often times get John to bring me supper – burgers/fries.  It was bad.  Since I’m in school, though, I won’t be working those long stressful hours so I’ll have plenty of time to prepare meals, eat the main meals at home, and just bring snacks with me.  I probably won’t even have much time to think about food.

I got back into writing in my food journal – I got lazy the other night but snapped back to myself.  I purchased my lunch today at school – chicken quesadilla – with salsa.  It was really good!  I left school before my last snack and I came home, made two eggs with plenty of veggies, fat free cheese slice and one piece of toast.  I used olive oil in the pan.  I ate and off to work I went.

I ended up coming home at 5pm because the computer wouldn’t let me log in so I came home … hungry … I tried to wait as long as I could and I had my veggies and ranch dip, an orange and one rice cake.  I hate eating supper so early .. I made green tea and had special K snack things.  John, on the other hand, decided on salt n vinegar chips (I stole 3 of them) and then he decided to cook homemade chicken nuggets his mother gave him.  It was 8:30pm, and my stomach was growly.  I ended up eating some of them with plum sauce.

As you can see, it was a night for picking.  Things like that happen when I eat my last meal of the day too early.  So, today may have been a complete write-off!  It’s also that time of the month and I’m having a very difficult time satisfying my chocolate craving … the cocoa crap is horrible and doesn’t take care of the craving.

I can certainly see me getting back on track tomorrow – I’m working 10am-2pm so I’ll get up and have a good breakfast and bring some healthy snacks with me.  When I return home, I’ll have a small snack and get some healthy things ready for supper.  I won’t be cooking that until at least 5pm!

It’s late now so I’ll head to bed soon … I’ve been tired lately too … I actually had a nap last night around 5:30!  I NEVER lay down, but I was tired and had a 50 minute power nap.  It felt great.  I will be back Sunday – have a wonderful weekend!